| - 5150 I don't really get on the computer much anymore, I guess. And I got a myspace for some reason. lol.
Nick left me for boot camp on Monday so I've been just sitting around not doing much. I partied with some people at Christian's house on Saturday and when everyone left Christian and I went up to a spare room and just talked all night. Like, 'til 8 in the morning all night lol. Then my mom and I went out to dinner last night which was nice. Charlie and my dad are gone until Wednesday. Kind of nice because my dad's been a gigantic asshole to me for a while and it's actually really nice to have him far away. I do miss Charlie, though. When Nick left I walked in my house crying a little and he gave me one of those nice brotherly hugs and tried to make me feel better.
My mom is partly glad that Nick is gone because I haven't even really been home all summer lol. It's probably good for me, too, because now I can get back in touch with my other friends. Actually I think with most of my friends that I used to hang out with I've had a falling out or something. And that makes me sad because it is all my fault. But Nick has become my best friend and I wanted to spend as much time with him as I could before he left because when he comes back he's only going to be here for like, 10 days and then leave again for a long time. This is going to be a very rough lifestyle on us. I should mail him. I'll do that tomorrow.
Wow I feel incredibly lonely and I've been hiding it for a long time. I wish Kendall and I were still really good friends. I mean, we're friends, but we both have our own little groups now. And I miss Kristen and Christina very much. I tried calling them the other night but I guess they got new phone numbers or something 'cause I remember they switched to nextel not long ago. I don't know where they live either so I have no way of reaching them. I'll probably see them at WCC hopefully.
Anyway, I'm not really telling this to anyone because nobody (for good reason) visits my site anymore. Neither do I so I don't really care about that. Just felt like writing something down. Anything.
If someone does happen to come across my site, here's my myspace site:
http://www.myspace.com/lilsmiley_midget | 
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